Only thing I'm asking for..

I've never been very fortunate in my life.. A lousy family background and a mother who's so strict and gives me hell most of the time.. All I'm asking for is for you to be mine.. I really wish we can go back to the times whereby it's just the both of us and nobody else matters. Back to the times whether you just broke up with him, back to the times we went out tgt to watch a movie,watch netball nations cup,slack around,buy your art things,went to USS, back to the times whereby we'll meet after and just be so happy together,with nobody else interfering. It has also been awhile since you stayed online whatsapp just to wait for my replies and to reply immediately,I really miss that.. I can just lay on my bed, think about all these past memories and start tearing.. I really miss those times. Please,get tgt with me soon so that we can make more happy memories tgt ?? ):

Foolish me..

Was about to walk out of school and realised it was raining super heavily, I remembered you don't bring umbrella to school so I asked you..and I waited in school just for your reply. And wow, I saw you walking in my direction using your phone but not replying. You're great, you just have this ability to hurt me so fucking easily. You claim you're just playing with him but your actions show otherwise. So you can't put me as your priority when you're just playing with him.. And here I am going to buy you something for valentines day.. He asked me why do I put myself in such situations all the time, well,guess I'm just foolish. Sometimes you just hurt me so much that I don't know if I should continue hanging on..

I hope you won't get bored of me...

You're starting to text him everyday.. Although you said you're just gonna play with him, I'm feeling fucking jealous as hell.. It's like you're replying him instantly and it kinda saddens me to know I'm not the only guy you're texting anymore.. Perhaps I'm not afraid of weizhi but just feeling that you don't even seem to like me anymore.. He told him that you like me but I guess your feelings for me are fading off.. I'm scared by the time I prove to you that you're not just a crush to me but someone I really love, you'll get bored of me already.. As much as I wanna keep a distance from you so that you won't get bored of me so quickly, I'm scared that it'll bring about other consequences as well..like things may not be the same anymore.. Please don't get bored of me okay ?? I really need you in my life, and I hope one day you'll need me as much as I need you..